People come and people go. Today to me feels like one of those days. People whom which you can defend and have their back, even to the point of straining your friendship with other people, can just so easily turn their back on you in a matter of seconds, and speak of it as if it was always the case. This of course, isn’t the first time that I’ve ever written in about these kinds of things. The last time however, was a long time ago, case in point Jackie Liu.
Today however, is the beginning of a new end. If that context has you bewildered, then perhaps I should make things easier. Tracy Loh has officially made it into my bitch book (not that I have one, but I have one now). She just wrote the most absurd shit to the group chat in which Denny is in, involving me, Christine and Alvin, and I have no intentions of overlooking it. Her biases within her writing is clear. With writings like “For obvious reasons, I don’t trust Yang and Alvin”, I think her words really don’t leave much for interpretation. What bothers me more is how Khen and ML both just follow blindly into it. Perhaps I can’t blame Khen, after all, his spine belongs to Tracy, so what was to be expected of him.
I accommodated her and her plans when she joined me and Denny’s more personal Yogya trip. I have fought with Hoie Chew and Fu Yao over them, defending her and her viewpoint more vehemently than the others, but perhaps I have been fighting for the wrong team; after all, is it not better to be with the foolish, but honest and trustworthy people, than be with the sly snakes that appear nice and innocent up front, yet wield the daggers that are as twisted as their soul behind their backs.
I am disappointed. I am absolutely disappointed with her, given everything that we’ve done together and shit. I expected better of her. I expected more of her. In that sense, I expected her to be a decent human being, perhaps beyond that, but it seems like she even finds it difficult to hit that benchmark. Of course, I’m not forgetting what Alvin has done to me in the past, but at this point, I find solace in mild confiding with him. Certainly I do not speak so ill of them to the point of coming up with silly excuses to go behind my reasoning; no, I make things very clear, whether I like you or dislike you, or the shit that you’re doing.
Whatever. If that’s how she wants to feel about us, stringing along vacuous and lame excuses while doing so, then so be it. I don’t need friends like this in my life, I don’t need people who propagate this kind of shit, needlessly finding some way to feel superior to others. Even her incessant bantering about Matt gets to me after a while. It’s not your life, deal with it, who cares.
Perhaps that’s all that she is though, a gossiping bitch.
