Hello self

Had a most interesting week. First of all, i fail... badly, in Specialists Maths. Alright... maybe its supposed to be hard and all but then again, its still maths, and i claim to be good in it so its preeeeeetttyy... disheartening

Secondly. I nearly blinded myself... my right eye... with what???? a bloooooooddddyyyy scissor. Not a very nice thing... i scared the shit out of myself... the scissor shot straight at my eyelid, cut my eyelid so deep, just a round .5 cm away from my eye... freaky shit...

Other than that, i got a good badminton match.. nearly won all of them, just lost by 1 point.. was good but anyway, not dissapointed or nething... llalalalla

Ah...

It has been a while hasn't it? just forgot that i had a blog... lol... ah... just seeing whether a personal reflection and all will help me to concentrate on my work more. I've just been too freaking lazy to do anything... and that is just not cricket... hmm... I need to study... but my mind says no... My will says do it...

Ah... I don't really know why i'm like this. Totally different from last year. The only thing that differs this year is that i'm trying to forget "her". I don't view it as hard, but i just feel that i've lost my will to do my fullest potential. Its like... weird... i know that my world doesn't revolve around her but i just feel so lost and dreamy when ever i go to school now. It's just somthing to pass the time...

She's going off to London and i'm stuck here in Oz.. well... the best i can hope for now is of course my friends from M'sia coming over for uni... BUT! before that. I've GOT TO GET THE RESULTS TO JOIN THEM!!! WTF AM I DOING TO CHANGE THAT????!!! NOTHING!!! NOTHING NOTHING NOTHING!!!! WHY??? I DON'T KNOW!!! I'VE JUST LOST MY F**KING WILL TO DO ANYTHING AND EVERYTHING!!! GODDAM!!!!! i want my life to be how it used to be. Filled with will and goals... ah...