wooo

Woo.. I'm addicted to flash songs... i'm not sure if they're real songs but they're funky and i likem... One of them Is O-zone - Dragostea Din Tei and All Your Base Are Belong To Us.... hehehe... i just keep repeating and reapeating it... i'm addicted!!! hahaha...

Testing...

Hmm... testing out whether this might work.... no chances... but oh
well.. better than nothing ya? mozilla thunderbird... i'm actually
trying to get some flash banners going on the blog page itself, but i
dont have a server to host my files on for free =P oh well.. this is
what u get when u bcome cheap... Study study! *tightens band on forehead
which reads "Must Win!"*

weird...

These few days have been interesting in their own ways. I'm writing now even though it's late because it would help me release some personal stress and prepare for tomorrow... another school day... Oh well... I've learnt alot about myself... i might not necessarily enter a robotics field but maybe design technology... i'm really into inventions and stuff... =) and the other is about my life... after a deep thought, i realised alot of the things in my life...

I realised that i've always been looking for that someone to fill in that gap... that link... until then, i'll always be the broken chain... i dont know... i've been trying to understand why i feel things, why i do the things i do... well... self deep analysis... haiz... weird enough as it is, i have to honestly say that i've been looking for a special someone... the one that would make me smile no matter what... the one who would help me in need... you know the drill, a loved one that is somehow not related to you... doesnt necessarily have to be a girlfriend..

My life has been so empty... so broken... i cant concentrate on things... i envy what i see, and hear... i envy the things other people have... but envy alone cant help you progress ya? I feel funny bout saying it but i feel that up till now, i've been looking for a girl that i could relate to and enjoy myself with...

I feel that i had found that missing link... but now it's gone... i dont know whether i'll be seeing her again, but i certainly hope i do... In this weekend, seeing alot of things, the people all around me... all remind me of her for some reason... every where i look... and forgetting her... i've always failed... i've told myself to move on... but i cant... for some reason... she's just too important in my life... the catalyst of what i am today... may be good or bad, either way, i'm forever in debt to her... Gawd... even know... the thought of her plays in my mind... why... why... the special someone...

You know who you are... and... i'm not afraid to say that i miss your face, your presence, and your smile... T_T really feel like pouring my heart out now... haha... <-- The super Emo Dude....

mmm...

Interesting week it has been. Read finished 'The Da Vinci Code'... i really think that its an awesome book... the themes... the way the clues solve so much.... its just so good! haha... and i also went to watch the 'Cat Empire' concert... for those of you who do not know, the cat empire is a band that uses a mixture of jazz and rock into their music... very different... yet cool... band comes from sydney... =P other than that, i'm engulfed in total boredom... as in... total... bored to the skull =P oh well, thats life

Life... oh life... mmm life...

Well, certainly the most interesting day to start the term. First of all, this morning, or last night, i couldn't get to sleep until bloody 5 am... thats only 2 hours of sleep dammit! for some reason i just could not sleep... maybe it was coz my tummy was making noises.. had only 1 meal that day lol... Another thing was that we had school muster this morning and it was different from the rest. Someone had died that Sunday. A year 12 from 2004, the year which i came in, Sam. I dont recall ever knowing him, but anyway, he died in a car accident. The more i hear about this, the more i wonder on the brains of human beings. Really!

Why bother racing down a street in a fast car, risking your life, thinking everything will be okay, when you could just go to a bloody theme park, get urself a ticket and ride a roller coaster. Sure perhaps the thrills are abit less than being incontrol, but then again, its cheaper than the price of life. I don't understand these things too well. The papers go on and on and on and on about car crashes. They lower speed limits, tighten security and still, still there will the that bunch of people, still brave as ever and stupid to the head. It pisses me abit really, coz when i get a car of my own, and i start driving, my life and the lfie od my passengers would be in jeopardy just because of them. Hurting people that are innocent. That has to be the same as shooting a gun and killing innocents wouldn't it? haiz... i dont know la... i'm just thinking of the future now, how i would be a parent.. driving my kids, maybe for supper or something, and suddenly i get hit by an anonymous car. I wouldn't know what to do.. i'd be furious the rest of my life and even though the guy would survive the crash, i would certainly make him wish he were dead for even thinking of harming my kids. Pissed pissed pissed i am. Oh well...

The Price Of Sanity

Gad dammit, about damn time they freaking unlocked my account. It has been over 4 weeks that my account has been locked, because i let some one use someone elses account. Evil as it seems, i claim not guilty. Anyway, i've been wrecking my brain bout this subject for way too long for my liking. I've been unable to do my work and if i wanted to use someone elses account to do my work, i'd get in trouble. This is using the school computers by the way. Gah... Well, in other news, i'm reading The Da Vinci Code now.. and its a pretty cool book really... lots of stuff i din know at first... well for you people who were like me in the beginning and though that this was just some weird book all together, try to read it... its about a murder in which the victim left a cryptic message behind which leads to the discovery of the holy grail!. lol abit weird but yea... in direct trans it is.

BTW, If you're reading this Osheenn, i'm really sorry i didn't manage to call you the day before you left... had a long day before and was really out of it... and btw.. u havent given me ur UK HP no yet lol