So hear me out, Our lives get harder It slips through our fingers, Like this fist full of sand

Hold me tonight
What happened to me
My head in the clouds
Fallen so deep

You came in soft
No shoes on my feet
Cold and afraid
It feels like I could break down
Right here on this shore
I'll go a straight

Here I stand,
Where earth meets water
The wind blows smoke,
Across the land

So hear me out,
Our lives get harder
It slips through our fingers,
Like this fist full of sand

Like a fist full of sand

Lay down tonight
The stars as our spine
Summer will fade
And it feels like I will lose you,
with each of the turning tides
Till the first snow arrives

So here I stand,
Where earth meets water
The wind blows smoke,
across the land

So hear me out,
Our lives get harder
It slips through our fingers,
Like this fist full of sand

Here I stand,
Where earth meets water
It slips through our fingers,
like a fist full of sand
It slips through our fingers

I can't get enough; I am insatiable

Do you even know
How you affect me
Unlock the ceiling
To the sky overhead

How can I grow?
There's already too much
But then like the warm rush
You wrap around me

And they say that every fire must burn out
But you are the sun
There's more where you came from

I can't get enough
I am insatiable
I try but can't get far
It never been this good

I’m never alone
You’re always beside me
I’m always looking
Everywhere else

There is a storm
Forever raging
You’ll be my haven
My only escape

And they say that every fire must burn out
But you are the sun
There's more where you came from

I can't get enough
I am insatiable
I try but can't get far
It never been this good

You're just too much
Too vast for me to hold
Turn over every stone
I am insatiable

Insatiable

We’re falling back in love, Here we are again, Now you’re singing my song, And I’m singing your song

I believe that we can make it
I don’t care what others say
They don’t know the way we love, they’re outside

If you can meet me in the middle
maybe we can compromise a little
Coz our love is worth it all
it’s bigger than little things we fight
For you I’ll give up all the lives that don’t lift us

We’re falling back in love
Here we are again
Now you’re singing my song
And I’m singing your song

Falling back in love
And we’re both moving
to the beat that goes like this
I’m singing yeahh
And do woooohhhhh

We’re falling back in love

Now that we are here together
let this moment last forever
As I look into your eyes
they’re so bright
I promise I’ll tell you all my secrets
tell you my fears and face my demons
Cause honesty will bring the light

For you I’ll give up all the lives that don’t lift us

We’re falling back in love
Here we are again
Now you’re singing my song
And I’m singing your song

Falling back in love
And we’re both moving
to the beat that goes like this
I’m singing yeahh
And do woooohhhhh

We’re falling back in love

Anywhere I, would have followed you… Say something I’m giving up on you.

Say something, I'm giving up on you
I'll be the one, if you want me to
Anywhere I would've followed you
Say something, I'm giving up on you

And I am feeling so small
It was over my head
I know nothing at all

And I will stumble and fall
I'm still learning to love
Just starting to crawl

Say something, I'm giving up on you
I'm sorry that I couldn't get to you
Anywhere I would've followed you
Say something, I'm giving up on you

And I will swallow my pride
You're the one that I love
And I'm saying goodbye
Say something, I'm giving up on you
And I'm sorry that I couldn't get to you
And anywhere I would've followed you (Oh-oh-oh-oh)
Say something, I'm giving up on you

Say something, I'm giving up on you
Say something...

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I don’t usually post non trance songs on here, but this is a song that I recently discovered. A song that I wish I would have had back when we were in the rough patches. Totally strikes a note with the me from back then.

Now? Now this song is only a representation of what was, and the ending that came after.

Also, probably the only Christina Aguilera song that doesn’t make me want to kill her hahaha.

 

Feeling a bit mellow now. :\ sigh.

hamster off and out.

16/05/92

16th of May 1992. Not really a date that I can so easily forget. I say this because up till today it still means something to me, and though we may not be lovers anymore, it’s still the birthday of an important person and friend.

These days, there is no communication between us. There is no real reason to anyway, as we’re two people moving along their own paths in life at this point. Even then, there’s something I would not like to forget, and that simply is kindness, in particular kindness towards her.

People make mistakes. They do things that they realise on hind sight, may not have been the smartest things to do, or the nicest even. I will easily admit that; I have not been very kind to her ever since things took the turn. I have placed myself and my well being as well as recovery over hers, and while I believe that it’s kind of mandatory, I also believe that it’s not really something that you do while taking a notch at another’s. It’s late at night so forgive me if I lack coherency. What I mean by this is that while it may have been the right move for me to move on from things quickly and pick myself up, I did it at the expense of her feelings, and I believe I have wronged her in that sense.

I have just wished her happy birthday on facebook. I believe that it’s really the least that I can do at this point, as even though we’re not together anymore, I do want her to understand that where I have made my mistakes in the way I have treated her after, I still respect her, and I wish only happiness and kindness for her.

So with that, I think I’ll finally head off to bed. I just had to get it off my chest I guess ahahaha. Oh well. Lastly said, I am sorry for all the pain, anguish and heartbreak that I have caused you. I can’t say that I didn’t mean to do it, because back then, with my heart filled with spite and anger, and plenty of confusion… I thought of many things to say and do. I know that they’re not right, so I make ammends for the things that I’ve done, slowly, bit by bit, part by part. I just hope that I’m forgiven for the foolish acts that I’ve done is all.

Above all else, happy birthday Tze Ni. Have a good one and enjoy your time as a student. I’m sorry that things had to end this way, as back then I really would have loved to see you all the way through to the end, even through your graduation. This is nothing but dreams of the past at this stage, so I do not quell on it.

Even if we do not talk, even if we do not speak, even then, I will still believe in being kind to you.

Happy Birthday. You’re a big girl now, Congrats.

 

Hamster off and out.