Call of Duty 5: World at War

Trailer here: http://www.gametrailers.com/player/35412.html

Fun fun. New COD game, though this time we're pushed back into what looks like the WW2 islands though we're fighting for Iwo Jima now O.o.

Yep, killing them japs xD. Looks fun from what the trailer shows so while i'm dissapointed in no modern gadgetry, i would still play it :)

More often postings? O.o

Quote of the day:
Procrastination, is like masturbation. It's good in the beggining, but in the end, you realized you just fucked yourself.

On to more random business. If you're not a tech junky, please skip this part as it doesn't concern you. Infact, this is where it ends for non tech junkies xD

AMD/ATi HD 4850 Released!!!

http://www.guru3d.com/article/amd-ati-radeon-hd-4850-review-force-3d--powercolor/

Now basically, in a nut shell, AMD/ATi released their new HD4850 Graphics card. It costs a rough 199 USD, and is a single slot cooler card. Now, for those of you in the know, the older generation HD 3870 had 320 Stream Processors. Our new friend today, has 800 stream processors, and we're looking at the low end today folks. LOW END.

Now, onto performance. The card performs on PAR if not BETTER than a 9800 GTX. I'm not kidding you people. It is pure power, and this is low end we're talking about. Last ATi debut was back in the 9800 Pro days so seeing this is very very refreshing. We're talking 5-6 years ago. Now, a 9800 GTX costs 300 USD atm so this is a very very very good deal...

Onto more extremes, CrossFireX. This card SHITS ALL OVER the new GeForce GTX 280 Just released 2 or so days ago by nvidia. We're talking 20-30 FPS difference here. It couldn't be a better time to be a gamer.

bleh.

I'm feeling very melancholic today. Very. I'm quite depressed with myself in a way, in the actions that i take sometimes, and i feel that i've somewhat gone through a few drastic personality changes, though i'm not so sure if they are for the better. I'm skeptic of it.

Had my exam today. Only problem is that i didn't sit for it. I know what you're thinking, why not you tool, you ask. Sigh. 

The course name is Data Centric Net Communications or something along the line. Freaking difficult and over 60% of the class fail with some repeating the whole course 4 years to date from what i heard. Now, thats not really the issue. I myself don't understand whats going on 1/2 the time. 

I can't answer the questions in the assignments well, even going thoroughly through the notes given and the tutorials i went through. Maybe i've gone stupid-er or something. I really don't know anymore. I got so depressed that i knew nothing that i pretty much decided that regardless on whether i sit the 3 hour exam or not, i wouldn't be able to pass it.

I'm disappointed because its very unlike myself in a way. I've never given up like this before, no. I usually tell myself, "Yes, you might fail, but if you never try, you'll never know. In the end, trying and failing is better than not trying at all". I don't know why but the fear of failing a course crept up to me, and got the better of me. I mean, regardless, i would've flunked it but i'm still disappointed at WHY i didn't sit for the exam even though i knew it wouldn't end in my favours.

I'm sad, emotionally destroyed away adn maybe a bit disgusted with myself. More so, i feel useless because i'm not doing any justice to my dad whom i asked to change from an Engineering course to a Games Design course. He's a great dad. I love him plenty and he's very understanding, but sometimes i feel that i just don't do enough for him. I'd like to think i'm trying to please him as well as try to look out for my own future but am i? Am i really?

He expects alot from me and i know any parent would really. Its just that... I don't know. I feel that things could've been avoided somehow... yet not. I feel extremely powerless and useless. Sigh.

What happens when one fails... Does he get a 2nd shot at it or is he bound to the fact that he's failed once, even if he passed the 2nd time it doens't matter, failure is still part of your history now. Then again i think its always been somewhat part of my history. This is not the first time. I'm such a fool.

I can say the most inconsiderate things to people without considering their feelings, i do things that i know benefits myself more but hurt others, and most disgusting of all i hide it in this cheerful happy exterior. I don't like people knowing my problems because i don't like them worrying about them or judging me for them... but here i am blogging it on a public site. What a strange method of conduct. A friend once told me to have much more confidence in myself and be strong, i wonder what happenned to those precious words at this critical time.

What happens now i wonder. Is someone able to explain to me? I'll just sit here with a blank stare and broken mind while i wait.

Plantronics .Audio 370

New headset for me to aid me in my online fragging skills, grabbed from EB Games at 1/2 price : P.

Plantronics .Audio 370. Nothing too spectacular like when i first got my KSC75's but i'm quite happy with the quality and the build of it. Plus it doesn't look totally shitty like all the other gaming sets which are humanly priced out there...


The headset right out of the box


Nice Branding up the top


Side view of the headset


And a view of the ear paddings.

No, this doesn't mean that since i got a new pair of headsets, i'll forget about Ken Hirai's CANVAS. Its going to be repeated even more now. xD

That and i would've liked to show that i am still crazy for it by posting its lyrics here again so on so forth, but then that would be overdoing it. Just take the addict's word for it lawl

Ken Hirai - CANVAS

Itsu no hi ka mata aou to te wo furu, kimi no egao wo eien ni yakitsuketa
"Sou da ne?" to kotaeta boku no kao wa, jouzu ni, jouzu ni, waraeteita ka na

"Daisuki" to kaita booru wa mada watasenai mama
Boku no mune wo goro-goro korogari kusuguttainda

Kono mama ja irarenakute mo, kore kara ni nagasarete mo
Keshite kawaranai, keshite yogosenai, bokura dake no kyanbasu

"Gomen, ne" to itta kimi no kotae wo, mitsumete, sagashite, aruite iku kara

"Daisuki" to kaita booru no monji wa usureteiku kedo
Hourinageru tsuyosa mo suteruzurusa mo nakute

Sugite yuku, toki no naka de, kawari yuku, sora no shita de
Keshite wasurenai, keshite hodokenai, kizuna ga kitto, tsuyosa ni naru

Kumo no you ni, chigireyasukute, niji no you ni, tsukamenakute
Keshite modorenai, keshite yogosenai, bokura no ao kyanbasu

Koi mo, yume mo, shuudensha mo gochamaze oikaketa
Kimi no te wo nigiru to "itai" to itta
Koi mo, yume mo, namidagoe mo ikiru subete datta
Kimi no me wo miteita hontou ga itsumo ienakute

Kono mama ja irarenakute mo, kore kara ni nagasarete mo
Keshite kawaranai, keshite uso ja nai, bokura ga ima deaeta koto
Tori no you ni jiyuu na no ni, kaze no you ni samishikatta
Keshite modorenai, keshite yogosenai, namida de nutta kyanbasu
Bokura dake no kyanbasu

Addicted.