Sketchy Sketchy

I'm too bored for my own good. This is my latest work, which i'm actually pretty proud of. I spent quite sometime considering alot of factors and i think it came out pretty well... ^_^

And i updated that picture from there...

PPGD???

I got bored and began to scour the forum group i joined for something interesting... Ran upon this, PPGD, PowerPuff Girls Doushijin. Its really... cool lol.. This person did up a whole volume for the PPG series, incorporating familiar characters like Dexter, Invader Zim, Billy and Mandy, Samurai Jack. Its basically Cartoon Network Meets Nickelodeon. Very funky... check it out...

PowerPuff Girls Doujinshi

Also, believe it or not, there is a PPG movie coming out... in anime style... its... weird for starters, because they don't have superpowers like they usually do... like... summoning kinda superpowers... @_@

More pics for you to lookie at!

So i might be bored, but i'm having fun being bored okay? Don't Judge Me!


I drew this when i got bored... Umm... Well, i was supposed to study... Its Nerine from Shuffle! She's my fave character in the anime and she's a demon, not an elf... for you peeps out there. And i didn't trace it mind you. EDIT: Self reminder, remember to always check for body proportion before continuing to draw T_T


VG Cats... Gotta love their comics. If you have time, visit www.vgcats.com. OK, maybe only the gamers and anime freaks will understand some of them, but they're good dammit good!!!!

Woah...

Hoho... Feeling good... dunno for what reason. I've been feeling like this for some time now... and i'm enjoying it! I don't know why, i've suddenly changed... No joke... I don't feel like playing games, the only thing i do now is work, and somehow, i rather enjoy going to school lol...

Its good i guess, i can now study with ease and without worrying that i'm procastinating and stuff... This email is an excuse lol... Oh... Apart from that, the stupid guys from the IT Division still have not fixed my email's inbox. I get a message saying my inbox is full when i see it empty, and my new emails are deleted if i refresh the page.

Pretty screwed shit if ya ask me. I'm sooooo looking forward to going back to Malaysia now. Home... has a nice tone to it, after being trapped here for over 10 months.. its pure torture in a way... Oh... back to this study thing... i think i'm taking it a step too far though.

An oral presentation in class was to be 3-5 minutes... most people who did theirs already had around 12 slides... Powerpoint presentation that is.... I on the other hand. have 35 slides LMAO.... i don't know how long i'll go for, but some people mentioned that it could go over 20 minutes! LOL

EDIT: I did my presentation the other day and it did go over 20 minutes! it went for 25
LOL... but teacher said it was good, so i'm kinda safe... LMAO

My friend pressured me to do this... u owe me for this denny lol

Seven things you plan to do before you die:
1. Marry the woman that i love
2. See my children graduate from college and hopefully get married haha
3. Hope to strike a lottery
4. Do the so many things i've always wanted to do... like skydiving and rock climbing
5. Visit Japan and my relatives there... and load myself up with jap food lol
6. Do well in my entire life career
7. While i'm at it, earn a nobel prize in some way lol

Seven things I could do:
1. Always throw in the best of efforts in all athat i do
2. Actually study for my exams now... (WHAT AM I DOING!!!)
3. Get a part time job and buy things i've always wanted
4. Fuu... download anime?
5. Try not to be so judgemental when it comes to getting a girlfriend.
6. Build my physical strength up which i believe should help my morale
7. Get Straight A's in my Exams

Seven celebrity crushes:

None... Thats right, none

1. none
2. I said none!
3. Leave me alone!
4. alright alright! i give...
5. to tell you the truth, NONE!
6. I don't go for people that i can't reach
7. I'm a realist

Seven often-repeated words:
1. lol!
2. LMAO!
3. ROFL!
4. WTF?
5. haha
6. Wachu Wan Mada faka!
7. mm... cheese... i like cheese...

Seven physical traits I look for in the opposite sex:
I'm a personality person but anyway here goes

1. Face
2. Eyes
3. Body
4. Voice tone
5. Hair
6. Fashion sense (can't have people think i'm dating a roadside bum.. i guess..)
7. Body flab? yes, FAT

Seven tags go to:
1. Chong Ming
2. Yau Ga Jin
3. Leong Hoie Chew
4. Ruzanna
5. Leena Tee
6. Sinclair Mak
7. Giam Osheenn

why.

Since when have i lived this way
Putting all that i loved in dismay
Living a life that was so artificial
Aiming for what was superficial
Living life like a fool
Treating everyone like a fool...

Why i asked myself do i do this
Sing the siren's song of death
So many that i have hurt..
So many that i left uncured...
Why hadn't i noticed..

Living for two year now its been
Only thinking of the life i'm living
Why was i like that...
Why did i dissapoint so many... why...

I realise now what i was doing,
and i attempt to make this the start
Of my new life of starting the undoing
Of living life with a brand new heart

So many things i took for granted
So many people i assumed will be fine
So many times i lied to them
So many times i hurt the fragile mind.

So i start with the confession of the heart.
To clear my mind of things about to start
I usually do not like to mention names
But this time i will break the rules of the game

Osheenn, i have never had a change of heart
Even when i tried so hard to
Even though it was sad for me to part
I want you to know that i love you

Be it strange that i start this way
Be it weird that i act like this today
But somehow, I'm going to release all of my regrets
And i felt like starting off with the feelings i left compressed

I have never really told you how i feel
I have never really done anything for you
The pain that i felt was so real
The day that i made up stories in my head of you

Until today i still do not understand
the pain that i felt when i saw your hand
with the ring on the finger that you had
I couldn't bring myself to understand why i felt sad.

The things i complain about are stupid i know
Just a ring i told myself, what do i know
Every reason i told myself only made it worst
Everything i said made stronger this sweet curse.

To my father, i thank you for all you've done
I know that i have always had too much fun
Always taking but not giving, i'm such a bastard
Never taking in count how you felt, i know you're hurt

So i swear to you, i will not dissapoint
I will toil my best to make you happy
And if I still didnt manage to prove my point,
I will gladly allow punishment to consume me.

Sorry people that you had to endure such boredom coming from my stupid head... It's just that i have recovered from a mental breakdown. So sad... i was thinking alot... so much... on how i only expected to receive and not give.. to put it no effort for absolutely everything... I'm such a selfish person... I'm such a bastard...

Forgive me everyone if i have hurt you... I didn't mean to... I never meant to hurt anyone... all i can do is attempt to help... only to make things worse...

If you're reading this, you know that i just made a weird confession, and if you're osheenn, you're probably cursing at my stupidity... but i... i dont know what i feel anymore... so many things left me wondering, tearing my mind apart... even for the stupidest things... did she go offline because she didn't want to talk to me? did she not reply because i was disliked? why... why... why... So for the last time. I will be very selfish. I'm sorry that i didnt take any of your feelings into consideration when i wrote this. I just needed to get it out of the system, how i feel that is... I've always cared for you, i've never been able to get over you even though i know i should and must. WHY? i dont know... really..

So many things i have done, so many times i have tried, so many attempts i have made.. all futile... just makes me come back to the thoughts of you... I did so much... i even used other people... to try to erase you from my mind... not caring about their feelings.... yea... im a bastard...

WHY AM I EVEN WRITING THIS!! NO ONE EVER READS THIS BLOG! I... I'm going now.

Ah Life...

Can't really wait to go back. So much to do... I haven't breathed Malaysian air for a while... not that its good... just... hmm... miss home i guess. I'm feeling really really bad now. I've got a virus, and it's attacking my freaking lungs as well as my immune system..

Haiz. Brochitis and Phrayngitis. From my limited knowledge, i'm guessing infection of the bronchiols and pharynx. Forgive me if i spelt that wrong lol... Been coughing not stop. First time i've had this. Hurts like hell. My throat is soar, and i cough so much... that it aches all over my body when i do...

I've lost the appetite, and i havent been eating alot.... which is good in some aspects... lol... yea... the doctor said that i should have cured, but apparently its taking its sweet ass time. No amount of medicine that i take is making me feel any better...

So i'm sick. Lets move on to the more postive side. I've tried to counter it by doing lots of excercises. Oh.. wait.. i forgot to mention this massive ulcer that i have all of a sudden as well... Got this ulcer like... a week ago, when my coughing started also, and i have attempted to use listerine and medicate it... but, the irritating thing just gets bigger and bigger!!! @ _ @

Neways, yea, i've tried to help myself. Apart from the physical side, i've allocated myself a study time table as well... Hoping to increase my grades. Now, for the people who know me quite well, you should know that i'm pretty good in Math, Physics and Chemistry... so... why did i fail all of them in my trial examinations?

Well, i guess i didn't study loh... i've been too distracted with gaming, and i am not that strict with myself. I want to be. I am going to be. For my own good future, i must. Only 6 weeks of school left before exam so i must study my ass off!!! ahhh!!!!!

Yup. Onto another topic. Had a 'formal' dinner the other night and i randomly went into a conversations with two juniors trying to tease me (I have not been the most... boyish person i guess. Too kind and too mature for them.) They started questioning me about my sexuality and stuff... and of coz, i was calm about it loh. Then they start calling me gay and shit... LOL.

Well, i played along and then they ended up asking me whether i had a girlfriend, seriously. Haiz, i guessed i paniced and i said yes loh... just to please them... then they kept on asking me these weird questions, have you kissed her la, have you banged her la... frankly quite disturbing.

So then i answered all and lied. Kissed once, and never banged, or rather, didn't want to. They start questioning why not loh... and i responded, that the whole point of having a girlfriend is not to bang. Its something more than that. The most disturbing response that i have heard. "That is the only reason you get a girlfriend!". Shocked, yes. Be reminded that these people are a year younger, thats all. Haiz... mentality of aussies.

So i will end it here. Wrote quite abit and i feel satisfied *COUGH* *COUGH*! *HACK*! argh... phlegm... And now to continue getting changed and out of my towel. LOL!!!!

Some random pics

I just decided to post some random pictures which i drew on my free time... they may not be the best, but i am proud... =P

A Shinobi


A Kunoichi


And a random girl out of my head lol

Hmm..

bored bored... i have to study... so much to do.. why am i even sending this? muaz dunno... haiz... i can't believe that my school years are coming to an end and that i'm moving on to university already... seemed so quick! hmm hmm...

I did a flashback the other day... I remembered my 16th year of living... haiz... loved it... i remembered the people there, and their role in my life... i actually wished that we didn't have to go our own seperate paths... something like being frozen in time... in that exact moment... never ending... but i guess i just dream too much...

Living here really has made me appreciate them even mroe... they were my friends... as in.. real friends... and now they're all over... not that its bad in different ways i suppose... like if i visit that country i can get a free tour... LOL!

Still, i wish i could relive those times... those treasured and most precious moments of my life...

In Japanese, "Watashi wa Taisetsu no Hibi des"... i think that's correct... should be.. lol... just that this says My most precious days... Close enough! I loved those days

Racism Eh...

I love how u can post blogs using email... this way it dont cost me to blog... Neways, back to the matter at hand. Exams approaching, assignments increasing... hmmm and me working... gotta loove the equation... i'm actually working! well, except for now... coz i am writing this... but it doesnt matter.

It seems so fast how the years have passed... just like that! bam... more than half a year gone... wont say down the drain, not a total waste... meh...

I just decided to continue writing more as i am now quite fired up... THIS HAS GOT TO BE THE MOST RACIST AND INCORRECT STATEMENT I HAVE EVER SEEN. I found this on a thread that linked to this petition. READ BELOW TO SEE WHAT I MEAN

To: George Bush

Here in America, we live in a climate of moral decay. What is the cause of this? It is called "anime". Anime is a perverse, evil, insiduous form of animation from the dark land of Japan, and is corrupting America's youth at unprecedented rates. Here are a few examples of anime which are circulating on the Internet and may very well be in your home:

1) Ah My Goddess: A sick and disgusting show which causes children under the age of 18 to think they are capable of love. The main female character is clearly under 18, and is forced into a romantic relationship by an older man who "wishes" for her to be his girlfriend forever. He even KISSES her, and she appears NAKED. That poor girl must be so confused.

2) Love Hina: I'm not even going to mention the unspeakable, disgusting, pedophilic, pornograhpic events which transpire during this show, but suffice it to say, groups of young men on Love Hina-fueled rampages are raping children at a level unheard of since the 60s.

If you are a parent or a decent human being, I urge you to sign this petition to ban all forms of anime in the United States. Anyone who is found in possesion of anime should be arrested and jailed for an exhorbant period of time. Anime is a dark scourge upon our beautiful nation, and we don't need this Japanese filth corrupting the hearts of the children.

As a resonsible Christian, I demand to see this garbage removed from our nation. Please sign this petition and send it to George Bush, your Congressman, and the makers/distributors of anime filth and depravity.

Do the right thing.

I Dont know about you, but this has to be the most racist set of words that i have read in ages, i didn't choose to believe that such people existed but hey, i am mistaken. Even the F**KING info of the anime are wrong.

Ah My Goddess... She is a freaking goddess!!! what makes you think she is under 18? Forced into relationship? she was the one who started it! older man? What the F**K! He is a UNI STUDENT!!! He never wished for her to be his GF 4eva, and she is not naked. This person is just sick and demented. My comment on this one: "F**KING KNOW BEFORE YOU SAY ANYTHING F**KFACE". Sorry, just abit angry with the racist comments.

Now lets look at Love Hina and examine what this Fag had to say. Mention of the unspeakable he says... pedophilic he says... porno he says... well, this person says that it is a rape fest. That is so not correct. It's a group of girls and 1 guy to correct that, and no rape ever happenned. This is one sick bastard. Secondly, EVEN IF THEY ACTUALLY MANAGED TO BAN ANIME BASED ON THIS STUPID REASONS THERE IS STILL PORN DUMBASS!!!... DID YOU KNOW THAT THE US HAS SO MUCH PORN THAT IT CAN EVEN FILL BUSH'S WIDE EMPTY HEAD? geez... Over here we see pedofile porn... oh look! IT'S CHILDREN YOUNGER THAN THE AGE OF 10 EVEN. Now what is in this corner...WOW... this shouldn't be happening... A RAPE IN PROGRESS BEING FILMED! Gee its spreading all over the internet... ooh... not good.... >=(. You F**KING fag... ur the one raping women out there. I, for one, am a feminist so F**K off.

I'm so so sorry.. this is too much for me to handle. Anyway, tell me... which is worse. Watching live bare skin, being raped for real, and having known that there are real pedofiles in the world, or watching imaginary anime, that for that matter, most DO NO CONTAIN PORN MATERIAL.

I know i'm being abit racist and unfair to the good people out there, but GOD.. I HATE STUPID AMERICANS.

hmm hmm...

Ah... the time of the year where i go... "F**K! i've got only this much time left till my trial exams!". Ah... gotta love it... the pure stress on myself to study... come to think of it, i've been waiting for this for a very very long time... lets just say that i haven't been studying very diligently all year round... i however, am going to make up for it by doing this! haha!

Well, apart from this, Osh if ur reading this, i'm sorry that i can't reply your sms now... coz i got no more credit <-- somehow i dont know how i finish it so quickly, but anyway. Well, i guess that she's right in a way. As long as i have the memories its alright... but sometimes, wouldn't one want more than just memories? something that you can remember even when you get older? i mean... face it... old ppl forget easily... =P, and i dont mean taking pictures. Having the picture of someone already dead ain't gonna make u any happier. Haiz... too bad we aren't immortal ya?

oh...

been too freaking long since i last wrote... been too lazy and also nothing much to write.... so my sis shifted to a new place... nothing too big i suppose... so i finished a few games... again boring... well, i guess i kinda miss being home and all... i kinda thought back the other day and noticed how my sixteenth year was the best of all.

Of all my years in school, i have never enjoyed being as school as much as when i was sixteen. New school, new people... i miss all of those. I actually had fun in school. No more was i an outcast but rather someone with importance in different aspects... haiz.. how i miss sedaya. The people whom i called friends there... i mean.. .the real deal... people who actually help you out whenever in need, regardless of racial background... well, thats the way to go right?

Also the different and nice people i met there. The teachers were so much like friends... people whom you could just sit down and idle chat, instead of going to them just looking to pick up those extra marks and stuff... Probably i made some of my good friends there... sadly how they're so spread around the world now... like... dispersed... oh well... we all follow our set paths right? we all aim towards our own dream... but somehow, someday, i wish that we could all meet again and relive those times.

hmm..

This year has been so very different... i feel so... slack... lazy... bummish... whatever term you wish to call it... haiz... Not doing any work at all... Anyway, met up with my math teacher last year... ask me how i was doing as usual... then i decided to be truthful and tell him that i was very slack even though i knew that it was a bad year to be. He said something that struck me pretty deeply. "Yang, thats not like you". heh... Maybe i have been influenced by the aussie slack already...Epidemic... LOL...

That made me remember on how i used to do work everynight, no matter how small it would be, just to stay top, just to get recognition of my skills... I've not done any serious work this whole year, and i'm already 1/2 way through it... how bad is that? haiz... It's been decided, i'm not gonna allow myself to be sucked into slacking... i've seriously gotta get something going! work... @_@...

note

I've been licing around a group of sad little kiddy boys lately so excuse me for the desperation...

woah...

Normally i'm not like this so bear with me for a bit ere... just had one of those weekends wher i go off and escape from the evil boarding house.... woohoo to exeats... anyways.... i can't stop thinking on what happenned on Friday loh... girls... 2 girls to be more specific... asians... taking in donations in the city... not just that... they looked so cute... and so... uumm... attractive? in their uniform... one wearing a jumper... more interesting is that.... THEY LOOKED LIKE TWINS!!! WWOOOOOOOOOOO....

But then again, as interesting as they look, i prolly got no chance against these kind of ppl.... but then again, it doesnt hurt to try does it... missed my chance on friday... although i did give a donation to them... err... yea... so this week since i got things to do in the city as well, i'm gonna findem!!! weee.... =P

woops

My bad.. seems like sprite does dissolve... just takes freakin long.. kakaka... <-- Chemist blooper!

Woo woo woo...

Gotten into the habit of drawing Manga/ anime chars lately... used to be pretty slow in getting a details going but now i can do it pretty quickly... interestingly kool... going to try and draw people anime versions of themselves for a look see haha...

Another thing... i just found out that sprite doesn't dilute in water that well... strange... i always thought of sprite to be an aqueous solution with h2o already present so ther's no prob... but there i am... staring into a cut with sprite mixed with water... and watching the patterns form again and again after i mix it... =P

Speaking of the anime thing... i've been pretty interested in converting stories that i wrote in english class that got a pretty high score into a manga... hehehe... abit the lame... but then, i know that.. but i still think it would be interestingly kool... being able to see your story come to life instead of fantasies in the head is a major plus for me... =P

long time eh?

It's been a while hasn't it? been abit too lazy to write in, also because nothing cool has been really happenning recently. Well, i just came back from Quidam, a circus, which is apparently quite famous. Performances were interesting and stuff... and some of the sheet were pretty whacked... good time... although not everybody enjoyed it (F**KING PRICKS...) excuse the language, i just do not enjoy they're irritating presence at times.. Addicted to certain songs as well...

I've been listening to a particular song almost everyday non stop this week. It's called Dragostea Din Tei by O-Zone, and it's a romanian song... the tune's quite catchy as well! ooo.... been a cool week... also met this cool freakish guy... who is also famous. He came from the states and he is a professor of math... Professor Benjamin he is called... very cool dude. Chuck and 3 digit number to him, and he will square the number on the spot, as soon as you ask the question. Amazing, yet scary...

wooo

Woo.. I'm addicted to flash songs... i'm not sure if they're real songs but they're funky and i likem... One of them Is O-zone - Dragostea Din Tei and All Your Base Are Belong To Us.... hehehe... i just keep repeating and reapeating it... i'm addicted!!! hahaha...

Testing...

Hmm... testing out whether this might work.... no chances... but oh
well.. better than nothing ya? mozilla thunderbird... i'm actually
trying to get some flash banners going on the blog page itself, but i
dont have a server to host my files on for free =P oh well.. this is
what u get when u bcome cheap... Study study! *tightens band on forehead
which reads "Must Win!"*

weird...

These few days have been interesting in their own ways. I'm writing now even though it's late because it would help me release some personal stress and prepare for tomorrow... another school day... Oh well... I've learnt alot about myself... i might not necessarily enter a robotics field but maybe design technology... i'm really into inventions and stuff... =) and the other is about my life... after a deep thought, i realised alot of the things in my life...

I realised that i've always been looking for that someone to fill in that gap... that link... until then, i'll always be the broken chain... i dont know... i've been trying to understand why i feel things, why i do the things i do... well... self deep analysis... haiz... weird enough as it is, i have to honestly say that i've been looking for a special someone... the one that would make me smile no matter what... the one who would help me in need... you know the drill, a loved one that is somehow not related to you... doesnt necessarily have to be a girlfriend..

My life has been so empty... so broken... i cant concentrate on things... i envy what i see, and hear... i envy the things other people have... but envy alone cant help you progress ya? I feel funny bout saying it but i feel that up till now, i've been looking for a girl that i could relate to and enjoy myself with...

I feel that i had found that missing link... but now it's gone... i dont know whether i'll be seeing her again, but i certainly hope i do... In this weekend, seeing alot of things, the people all around me... all remind me of her for some reason... every where i look... and forgetting her... i've always failed... i've told myself to move on... but i cant... for some reason... she's just too important in my life... the catalyst of what i am today... may be good or bad, either way, i'm forever in debt to her... Gawd... even know... the thought of her plays in my mind... why... why... the special someone...

You know who you are... and... i'm not afraid to say that i miss your face, your presence, and your smile... T_T really feel like pouring my heart out now... haha... <-- The super Emo Dude....

mmm...

Interesting week it has been. Read finished 'The Da Vinci Code'... i really think that its an awesome book... the themes... the way the clues solve so much.... its just so good! haha... and i also went to watch the 'Cat Empire' concert... for those of you who do not know, the cat empire is a band that uses a mixture of jazz and rock into their music... very different... yet cool... band comes from sydney... =P other than that, i'm engulfed in total boredom... as in... total... bored to the skull =P oh well, thats life

Life... oh life... mmm life...

Well, certainly the most interesting day to start the term. First of all, this morning, or last night, i couldn't get to sleep until bloody 5 am... thats only 2 hours of sleep dammit! for some reason i just could not sleep... maybe it was coz my tummy was making noises.. had only 1 meal that day lol... Another thing was that we had school muster this morning and it was different from the rest. Someone had died that Sunday. A year 12 from 2004, the year which i came in, Sam. I dont recall ever knowing him, but anyway, he died in a car accident. The more i hear about this, the more i wonder on the brains of human beings. Really!

Why bother racing down a street in a fast car, risking your life, thinking everything will be okay, when you could just go to a bloody theme park, get urself a ticket and ride a roller coaster. Sure perhaps the thrills are abit less than being incontrol, but then again, its cheaper than the price of life. I don't understand these things too well. The papers go on and on and on and on about car crashes. They lower speed limits, tighten security and still, still there will the that bunch of people, still brave as ever and stupid to the head. It pisses me abit really, coz when i get a car of my own, and i start driving, my life and the lfie od my passengers would be in jeopardy just because of them. Hurting people that are innocent. That has to be the same as shooting a gun and killing innocents wouldn't it? haiz... i dont know la... i'm just thinking of the future now, how i would be a parent.. driving my kids, maybe for supper or something, and suddenly i get hit by an anonymous car. I wouldn't know what to do.. i'd be furious the rest of my life and even though the guy would survive the crash, i would certainly make him wish he were dead for even thinking of harming my kids. Pissed pissed pissed i am. Oh well...

The Price Of Sanity

Gad dammit, about damn time they freaking unlocked my account. It has been over 4 weeks that my account has been locked, because i let some one use someone elses account. Evil as it seems, i claim not guilty. Anyway, i've been wrecking my brain bout this subject for way too long for my liking. I've been unable to do my work and if i wanted to use someone elses account to do my work, i'd get in trouble. This is using the school computers by the way. Gah... Well, in other news, i'm reading The Da Vinci Code now.. and its a pretty cool book really... lots of stuff i din know at first... well for you people who were like me in the beginning and though that this was just some weird book all together, try to read it... its about a murder in which the victim left a cryptic message behind which leads to the discovery of the holy grail!. lol abit weird but yea... in direct trans it is.

BTW, If you're reading this Osheenn, i'm really sorry i didn't manage to call you the day before you left... had a long day before and was really out of it... and btw.. u havent given me ur UK HP no yet lol

Hello self

Had a most interesting week. First of all, i fail... badly, in Specialists Maths. Alright... maybe its supposed to be hard and all but then again, its still maths, and i claim to be good in it so its preeeeeetttyy... disheartening

Secondly. I nearly blinded myself... my right eye... with what???? a bloooooooddddyyyy scissor. Not a very nice thing... i scared the shit out of myself... the scissor shot straight at my eyelid, cut my eyelid so deep, just a round .5 cm away from my eye... freaky shit...

Other than that, i got a good badminton match.. nearly won all of them, just lost by 1 point.. was good but anyway, not dissapointed or nething... llalalalla

Ah...

It has been a while hasn't it? just forgot that i had a blog... lol... ah... just seeing whether a personal reflection and all will help me to concentrate on my work more. I've just been too freaking lazy to do anything... and that is just not cricket... hmm... I need to study... but my mind says no... My will says do it...

Ah... I don't really know why i'm like this. Totally different from last year. The only thing that differs this year is that i'm trying to forget "her". I don't view it as hard, but i just feel that i've lost my will to do my fullest potential. Its like... weird... i know that my world doesn't revolve around her but i just feel so lost and dreamy when ever i go to school now. It's just somthing to pass the time...

She's going off to London and i'm stuck here in Oz.. well... the best i can hope for now is of course my friends from M'sia coming over for uni... BUT! before that. I've GOT TO GET THE RESULTS TO JOIN THEM!!! WTF AM I DOING TO CHANGE THAT????!!! NOTHING!!! NOTHING NOTHING NOTHING!!!! WHY??? I DON'T KNOW!!! I'VE JUST LOST MY F**KING WILL TO DO ANYTHING AND EVERYTHING!!! GODDAM!!!!! i want my life to be how it used to be. Filled with will and goals... ah...

2k5...

Yes yes... hello to myself... long time since i blogged really... haven't really bothered doing so when i was back in Malaysia... But then again, i've got more free time now coz everyday would be what i like to call extremely boring... School again... bla bla bla... HATE IT!

Hate leaving Malaysia.. always have that feeling that i'm leaving everything behind me... Especially friends and family... not to mention food... and shopping malls... and cheap stuff... well everything i suppose... Fuu... i just din wanna leave... Its pretty sheep overall...

Well, to u peeps back in KL, i hope that u all enjoy urselves in Malaysia while u can loh.. hope SPM results get back fine.... ah... the usual... Just no life now.. i might be talking gibberish and i wouldn't even know... wow to me...

Nya...

Well, its been a while since i blogged. My last entry seems to have dissapeared... nevermind that... Just have been so freaking bored... i mean.. i literarily have nothing fun to do except homework... and thats not fun... hmm... oh well... i guess i'll just sulk infront of the pc... like always.. lol

Whoop dee doo.....

Oh.... back from oz... but still bored... something is just missing... i
don't find entertainment from what i am used to doing anymore... gah... i
don't know... i like playing computer games but this time i'm like... shit i
feel so useless i want to start work and start funding for what ever i
buy... strange for me la... i mean... its not everyday that i get so
enthusiastic about working...

I don't feel that same heat in my chest anymore... what used to be a
thrill.. an excitement... ecstacy for my mind... is just so empty now arfter
reading that particular line (doesn't really matter if you don't
understand... just personal stuff)... i know it was for me and after reading
it, i feel empty... my mind has cleared up though... and i can't say that
that is a bad thing... i mean... what better way to go into year 12 with a
clear mind... hahaha... ha... oh.. btw.. i got a really interesting email
from my uncle who is a christian... pretty good stuf...

There was a church that had problems with outsiders parking
in its parking lots, so they put up a sign:
CHURCH CAR PARK - FOR MEMBERS ONLY
Trespassers will be baptized!

"No God - No Peace. Know God - Know Peace."

"Free Trip to heaven -- Details Inside!"

"Try our Sundays. They are better than Baskin Robbins."

"Searching for a new look? Have your faith lifted here!"

An ad for one Church has a picture of two hands holding stone
tablets on which the Ten Commandments are inscribed and a headline that
reads,
"For fast, fast, fast relief, take two tablets."

When the restaurant next to another Church put out a big sign with red
letters that said, "Open Sundays," the church reciprocated
with its own message:"We are open on Sundays, too."

"People are like tea bags -- you have to put them in hot
water before you know how strong they are."

"Fight truth decay -- study the Bible daily."

"How will you spend eternity - Smoking or Nonsmoking?"

"Dusty Bibles lead to Dirty Lives"

"Come work for the Lord. The work is hard, the hours are
long and the pay is low. But the retirement benefits are out of this
world."

"It is unlikely there'll be a reduction in the wages of sin."

"Do not wait for the hearse to take you to church."

"If you're headed in the wrong direction, God allows U-turns."

"If you don't like the way you were born, try being born again"

"Looking at the way some people live, they ought to obtain
eternal fire insurance soon."

"This is a ch_ _ ch. What is missing?" (U R)

"In the dark? Follow the Son"

"Running low on faith? Step in for a fill-up."

"If you can't sleep, don't count sheep. Talk to the Shepherd."

God Bless and pass it on!

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