Legoland rawks.

Doing some photo uploads now in my room in Malacca, and it’ll take a while, so I figured that I’d do some blogging in the meantime. I’m currently in Malacca, and the internet here is extremely slow, and that’s not really an exaggeration. I kind of miss the internet in the Hotel in Johor, it was MILES faster tbh. Oh well.

Legoland today was awesome. We spent like a good 6 hours there, from like 10 in the morning all the way to like… 4 in the afternoon. I gotta admit though, that it was a lot of fun, and the place wasn’t really as overpriced as places like Universal Studios or what not. It was actually really decently priced, with a lot of good stuff all over the place. Overall? Very pleased and happy with the experience there. Had like 3 Roller coaster rides and 1 Log Flume, and the whole entire thing was AWESOME ahahahaha

Cathryn is once again chatting with me, and man… she’s again trying to rush me into a relationship. I can appreciate her feelings for me, but I don’t feel that I’m ready for her affection and that’s just me putting it really lightly to be honest. We hardly know each other for that matter, and now you want to get into something so much more serious? I don’t think it’s a wise idea, and that’s really just the truth of it.

Again I will say things like she’s nice and cute and etc etc, but I hardly know her, there are barriers between us, I’m not sure how attracted I am to her to be honest, and tbh, another long distance affair? I’ve really had enough of it. IDK. maybe I’m just not ready for another relationship again. At this point, I just want to be her good friend and leave it at that. I’m not looking for sex, I’m not looking for the naughty and hanky panky, I just want to chill and have good friends whom maybe start to mean a little bit more to me one day. I think that’s a fair thing to say.

I don’t know. I really don’t feel any affection to her at the moment, but I’m honestly trying. Maybe we’re just not meant to be. Maybe.

I’m tired, and have to get up early tomorrow. Nights blog :\ The fact that she’s hounding me a little right now is not exactly soothing either ._. blah.

 

hamster off and out

Much Puke

About to head off to bed soon. In Johor now, not exactly feeling too well to be honest. I feel a little bit sick, and that’s probably to do with the fact that I threw up just now, from playing too much games at the fair and having too full of a dinner >_> I was totally ran down by Cathryn to be honest :< She spun the teacup things so hard that I puked… and I mean it was an accumulated effect >_>

Gotta say that It was pretty fucking embarrassing walking around covered in puke, but hey, it’s something that I decided shouldn’t really bother me, and I should just deal with it and roll with it. I had to wash myself off in the bathroom, and that pretty much involved soaking myself in water >_> everything after that was just a series of making sure that I don’t really inconvenience other people and stuff…

I’ve always been really bad at motion and stuff, even when I was younger. It’s just that I noticed recently that I’m much better with something like roller coasters, in fact, they don’t really affect me, but when you have something with so much rotation in a short amount of time, and the spinning background behind someone, I just get disorientated so quickly and put out of question before I even get to do or say anything…

Embarrassing as hell, but Cathryn seemed really sorry for what she did >_> and I mean, it’s not entirely her fault, though I do mainly attribute it as so :\ Oh well. It’s not a big deal in that sense… I’ll get over it >_> I’ll live :< At least I had fun up until then hahaha >_> Meow ._.

 

hamster off and out

Slight Melancholy.

Alexis just left on her plane to Sydney. Originally I was looking at is as a way for me to focus my attention on other girls because it’s going to be difficult for me and her to work things out anyway, but over the past few days, we’ve gotten a lot closer, and I gotta admit that I’m actually feeling pretty sad right now. I try not to let it out to her, because I know that she misses me too, but I won’t really lie on this. I feel really sad about her leaving.

She wasn’t the most pretty girl, or the cutest girl. She wasn’t the most refined girl or the most romantic girl. Even then, I did enjoy spending my time around her, and just being myself, and you know… just… passing the time with her. She’s not perfect, in fact she’s probably the epitome of being far from perfect, but admittedly, I still really like her, though I don’t know to what extent. I do feel sad that she’s leaving, so I guess that it’s easiest said that I like her well enough to be sad about her leaving to Australia

The longer that I spend chatting with Cathryn, and I have been chatting to her quite often I admit, the more I feel disenchanted with the idea of her. I don’t know, she’s cute and she’s nice and all that, but somehow I don’t really feel the chemistry between us. There doesn’t really seem to be anything substantial holding us together, and even yesterday, she admitted to me that she was trying to rush things with me because another guy was after her and she kinda wanted to get him off her back. I mean, there’s so much wrong with something like that, and I told her off for it.

What does it matter that some other guy is chasing her, and what does that have to do with me, and why should it pressure me. If you don’t like him, tell him off. If you do, then go date him. I’d rather not try and have someone force my hand with something like this just because you can’t keep it together. I did tell her all of the above, and she gave me that blank expression of “Why didn’t I think of that”. Not sure if she’s air headed or just secretly trying to find excuses to get into another relationship with me.

In many ways, I feel like her getting into something with me would just be to get her mind off her ex that’s she’s been thinking of so constantly, and telling me about it. I understand she wants to get over her ex, but please don’t use me as an instrument to do so. Get over your ex, and when you’re done with that, come find me. I don’t entertain these kinds of requests and I don’t take them kindly. She’s been sending me a lot of pictures of herself as well as videos of herself, and while it was kinda nice initially, I can’t really say that I’m taking a liking to it now.

I get it, that’s how you look like, I get it you’re cute and pretty etc etc. Do you need to constantly rub it in my face? are you looking for praise? attention? You’ll find none of that stuff from me. I’d rather hear how your day was, show me interesting pictures of things that have happened through the day, and have meaningful conversations with me than for you to show me your pretty face all the time. Heck, there are even quite a few times where I say something, and she doesn’t get it, and she just goes ahead and interprets it as something else, and sometimes get angry at it as well. I mean, honestly? if you don’t know just ask. I won’t bite or scorn or you know… hate you. I will understand that you don’t get it, and I will explain it to you. I hate it more when you try and guess the meaning, and get it all wrong, and you get angry at me because of it.

I haven’t even really been using any complicated terms and sentences with her. I get it, she’s more Chinese ed and I’m more English ed, but come on… please don’t do that… >_> Lately I’ve been having more talks like… in depth talks with her, on what I think she should do with things and etc etc, more lecturing than anything else, and getting her to slow down and think more logically about things.

You know how I always keep saying that intelligent girls attract me? I am kinda seeing why I have that rule in place now, and yeah, they really do. I don’t mind if you are not as knowledgeable, but this… this, what she’s doing, is kinda irritating. Meh. I still have a lot of time to spend with her, and I don’t know, things may change. My way of life and mannerisms may rub off onto her, but even if it doesn’t… honestly I won’t feel bad about it at all. I have no intentions of getting together with a girl just because she looks good, or the prospect of having sex with her is high. Yeah, I’m sorry, if you picked me as that kind of guy, you’d be greatly and gravely disappointed.

Idk, just a little soul typing at this point I guess. I see what happens when the future unravels itself. Just thought that I’d mind unwind over here.

 

hamster off and out

Medanz

Supposed to be sleeping, but I figured I guess that I’d do some blogging just before I head to bed. I actually just got back from my trip to Medan, Indonesia. I gotta say that I ate a shitload and a bucketload, and now I’ve probably gained like hell. I’m actually afraid to check my weight. Close to 11 meals a day doesn’t do good for your body :\

I’m actually quite tired at the moment, but certain things are keeping me up, in particular that relating to my air conditioning that is leaking into a bucket :\ No, it’s not that it’s noisy or anything, as I’ve actually set up a system to catch for this and to counter it, by funneling all the water into a central location and using a string to trickle everything into a bucket for a soundless discharge, but rather the rate at which the bucket is filling up. At the rate it’s going, I’m probably gonna hit full by the time 12 hits :\ maybe even 10 D:

I know, kind of a weird thing to be worrying about at a time like this, but sue me. The first thing that I’m really greeted with at the end of my trips is a problematic air conditioning and a table that’s kinda fucked up beyond recognition due to the water dripping onto it and deforming it heavily.

Oh, here’s another interesting thing as well, I’m actually typing all of this on a new keyboard as the older one was actually giving me quite a bit of issues, so I decided to grab a new one from Amazon. Well, not exactly new, as the unit is actually a refurbished unit :\ It’s a lot cheaper than buying it new, and as far as I can tell… it’s pretty much owning the same thing for a lot less. I’m talking about like 50% less kind of less btw :\ hahahaha. I’m a happy camper I guess. I haven’t quite broken into it yet, but so far typing on it seems to be pretty good and I’m enjoying the experience.

Oh, another fun fact, that girl, Cathryn? She’s born in May as well, specifically May 28. Man, what is up with the girls that I go for being born in May? Is there something about May girls that I really go for? >_> I can’t really say much, but I mean, TZ is a May girl, Alexis is a May girl, and Cathryn is a May girl. I swear that I’m not picking them up on purpose >_>

On that note however, things with Cathryn are taking a slow, on my request. She seems to want to dive headstrong into it, and it’s kind of scaring me a little to be honest. I want to get to know her better before anything else :\ I’m not even sure if we’re even that compatible in the first place, as the whole… language and distance thing kinda puts me off I have to admit >_> She is however, really cute, and she looks like she’s good with kids, and not only that, she’s a nurse, so one way or another, that’s a good thing if things decide to take a serious turn between the both of us.

Idk. At this point in time, I’m just more concerned in taking my time and doing the things that I want to do before trying to get into another relationship I guess. She’s a nice girl and all that, but I’m not sure if she’s the right one to commit to at this point in time. In fact, the way that things are really going now, I want to try out things with Ann to see if we do have a good compatibility score with each other. For that, I’ll be travelling to Melbourne for a while and trying to spend some time with her :\ I’m not sure how things will turn out, in all honesty, I’m kinda skeptical, but I’m hoping that there’s something interesting for the both of us, given that we do find each other interesting.

Oh well, I guess we’ll see how it all goes. I think I’ll try and get more sleep now. My hours are kinda all over the place, and I should really regulate that shit :\

Cya blog.

 

hamsteyr off and out

Decisions and Consequences.

6am in the morning and I’m having trouble sleeping. My head is still all too busy thinking about all sorts of shit that I find myself unable to really relax and sleep.I guess that you can say that majority of this issue is attributed to the fact that I’m just a little bit confused right now when it comes to girls and well… my preference for which. I just don’t know to be honest. I have all these people around me, and I don’t really mean to sound like a playboy, but I just can’t really decide on who to go for and things like that.

The way I see it, Alexis is probably most definitely out. I mean, it’s what it has been from the beginning, just a fling. She likes me more than a fling these few days, but 7 years in between us and her going to Sydney to study and what not as well as complications with her family and relations to mine more than put me off from pursuing anything serious with her.

Then there’s the new girl, Cathryn. I do like her, I do. I admit that much, but the logistics of things just make it so much more difficult now that I don’t know whether I want to pursue it. Sure, it’s a lot closer than Australia, with her being in Penang and working there, but it’s still a fair distance away from me and that’s more than enough to put me off from getting too serious, unless she was interested in it as well… Still, she’s really a nice girl and cute and caring and what not… And admittedly as of late I’ve been sort of thinking to myself how it wouldn’t really be such a bad idea if I settled down with her. Sure, her command of English is nowhere near the levels of mine, but that’s something that can be improved over the years anyway… all that really matters is the feelings for one another. It also helps that she’s only a year younger than me.

There’s also the other matter of Ann. I don’t know if I still like her the way that I did years back, but that may only be because I haven’t been seeing or talking to her much, so much so that it’s almost become a case of out of sight out of mind. I don’t deny that she would probably be the closest when it comes to people that I’m more than likely to settle down with, but there’s still that air of uncertainty to be honest, in regards to what she means to me and whether this would all work out. The good thing about her though, is that she is in the same field than I am, mostly have common interests, and that she really enjoys spending time with me from what I can gather, and lately she’s been a bit more outdoorsy as well, and that is quite appealing. She contacted me this morning, and talked to me about photography which I got her into, as well as asked me when I was dropping by Melbourne as she would love to go with me and take photos and what not in these new places. She knows that I like her, or at least liked her before, I did confess to it after all, so maybe she’s trying to play onto that right now… Also, it doesn’t particularly bother me that she’s older than me, but rather the move back to Australia brings this air of uncertainty to me to be honest. Not as if I’m doing particularly super well in Malaysia at the moment, but I really don’t know how this is going to pan out if I were to choose her to be the one I end up with in the end…

Then there’s the matter with TZ. During the conversations today with Cathryn, she asked me if I still missed my ex from time to time. I told her that I do, and I was being very truthful about it. Despite the shit that we’ve gone through, we’ve had some pretty awesome times. I don’t know how things would ever work out as it were before if she were to come back, but maybe that’s the beauty of it, to not go back to what it was before, but to evolve into something stronger and better. Maybe. Maybe not. I don’t know. Given the opportunity, I would still have no intention of breaking her away from her current bf, and even if she was single, I don’t know how willing I would be to go after her as I did before. I think things would only come into consideration if say one day she talked to me and talked about how she wanted to try for an us again. Then maybe yeah, things have that good potential of working out. After all, in terms of the most long run of things, her situation is probably the best, with Alexis being far and way for long, Cathryn possibly being in Penang and Johor, not really KL, and Ann being in Australia, as I know TZ would still be working in KL after this, so… IDK.

I’m just pushing out speculations and thoughts at the moment, so don’t mind me, really. I have no idea what I’m going to go for, but at the moment I’m just riding the waves and seeing where they take me.

Cathryn said that I’m good at getting girls, so much so that she totally mistook me for being a playboy, and I don’t blame her. I’m good at dealing with girls, so much so that I have the confidence to say that if I were to choose a girl and be determined about her, there’s probably not much that would stop me from getting her in my arm and calling her my own. That’s how much confidence I have in myself at the moment. The only issue then is finding the right one to go for… And that’s not an easy task tbh.

And yes blog, there’s totally talks of settling down in this post. I’m getting older and these thoughts are running through my head, I won’t deny it :\

 

hamster off and out.

A new challenger appears? :/

Came back from my Penang trip with the boys on Saturday. Gotta say that it was quite interesting. The one thing that I didn’t quite expect was that my friend introduced us to some girls :| At the end of the night they came back to our place, and lets just say that I took a fancy to one of them. No, no hanky panky happened, just got to know her better and you know, play some games around the living room as we as a group were not exactly the most quiet group of people at Starbucks.

Anyway, yeah. I’m currently in contact with her, and so is she to me, and I have a suspicion that we do like each other, but obviously distance is really an issue at the moment. I mean, aside from that, there are a lot of things that I kinda have to get used to as well if I decide to really go down that road, but that’s not anytime soon I suspect. For starters, she’s an Adventist christian, something I really didn’t know of it’s existence prior to her. She can’t eat pork, seafood, or pretty much any fish without a fin haha. That said though, she’s quite relaxed about it, and she does eat her fair share of… other things as well heh.

I’ve usually gone for the more english educated girls. I mean, they’re really my number one preference, and she’s not one of them. That said though, she does have a pretty decent command of english, so I can’t really complain too much, I think it’s just a formality at this point that’s biting into my side as I’ve even known some english educated girls who can’t speak as well as her. Probably the biggest thing that bugs me is how she’s only had one boyfriend (this is not the problem) and that boyfriend was 20 years older than her and she loved him very much :| I mean, I’m not even sure how this kind of hookup takes place, but I gotta say, if they did get together for a long time, then when it started it must have been a bit of a borderline pedophilia :|.

Anyway, the interesting bit about her is that she seems to be quite a caring girl, even from the initial first day impression. After showing her picture to Chew as well, he kinda pointed out something interesting that I didn’t quite notice before. He said that she kinda looked like Osheenn, and after looking at the photos that I sent him, yeah, I kinda saw that :| I wonder if it’s my subconscious making up for the fact that I didn’t get osheenn ahahaha. She’s also a year younger than me, so that’s pretty much same age as her as well rofl.

There’s also another interesting piece of information that I found to be quite amusing, and that is that her last name is Yeo. Yeo without the H to make it a Yeoh. I wonder if that’s a terrible coincidence, or just god being tricky with me :| Bear in mind though, that I didn’t know her surname at all, as when she asked for my phone number, she didn’t really key in her last name, that and when she added me on Facebook, she didn’t have her last name listed there. I kinda found out after asking her, and I thought that was a really strange coincidence of sorts :|

So as it stands now, she’s a cute girl who looks like Osheenn, has the surname similar to my ex, which is Yeoh (I suspect that it’s just difference in spelling) and she’s caring, and a nurse. She also speaks pretty decent english and mandarin, and she seems to have a liking for me. I don’t know what to make out of this whole entire thing except that it’s kinda interesting haha.

Distance is still an issue though. She’s got a bond with the hospital she’s working at in Penang, and she’s originally from Johor, with her relatives being in Malacca, and she’s interested in working in Singapore after. Not much of a convergence point for the both of us imho.

IDK. lets see where life takes me. I’m not interested in jumping into another relationship without knowing what I’m getting into first, so lets see how this all pans out for me.

Still, life has an interesting way of trolling you. :\

 

hamster off and out.